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Well, there is more to tell. But I am feeling better than I was the last time I posted, in spite of some "news" from my new doctor. So, here is the story. Yesterday I called and left a message with my doctors office to see what do to next. She called me back with a new diagnosis. But first let me go back to almost exactly a year ago. Last July I had an HSG test done where they check your tubes and uterus. After having that test, both the doctor who preformed the test and my regular doctor said that one tube looked fine, and that one was possibly blocked, but they didn't think that it was, they thought it was more likely that it just spasmed during the test, which apparently can happen. So, based on this information we went ahead and had the 4 IUI's. So, fast forward a year, I now have switched doctors to a reproductive endocrinologist, and all of my previous test are sent to her. She looks at my HSG test and thinks that it isn't normal and that BOTH of my tubes are blocked. So, if she is correct, that means that none of these IUI's would have worked anyway, and that our only option for conceiving now is IVF, since apparently it isn't something that can be repaired. Plus, she mentioned that she is concerned that if I do conceive this way, it could possible be ectopic, and that worries me too. So, yesterday ended up being a pretty hard day for me as well.

First of all, I am confused about the two different diagnosis's, esp. since right after I had the HSG test done, the doctor who did it didn't say anything about them being blocked, and in fact said that one of them was fine. So, my new doctor suggested that we have the test done again, just to make sure and to get a "second opinion."

On top of that, dealing with the possible reality that I may not get pregnant again, and that if I do, it is going to be expensive and probably won't happen quickly. And then, on top of that, dealing with some frustration that if I was misdiagnosed, then this past year and all the procedures done and the money spent were all for nothing, since, if my new doctor is right, none of this would have worked if both of my tubes are blocked.

But in some ways it is nice to possibly know the reasons why. It makes our options more clear, either IVF or adoption. Both Tyler and I feel that our family isn't complete and we will just have to prayerfully decide what is best for our family and then make a plan for it to happen financially.

I just wanted to say thank you to all of my family and friends for your kind words and prayers. They help more than you could possibly know! Love you all!